(23) I FEEL YOU EVERYWHERE

23 IFYE 

REINVENTING MYSELF
DEATH AFTER DEATH
LIFE AFTER LIFE
THIS IS A PRAYER
THANK YOU FOR LISTENING

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credits

released February 3, 2023

ROOT ROT (SPRING) (death, four of cups): written and recorded in the dark of what was; my basement. in a stupor after coming out of the woods crying on november 23rd 2019 with my favorite guitar katherine. thank you to my wonderful friends beetle, molly, and melanie for lending me their voices for the final version of the song. i love all 3 of you so much. i feel you everywhere 

GIVE AND TAKE AND WITCHCRAFT (SUMMER) (the hermit, six of pentacles): written in my parents house in connecticut, on ukulele during 2016 for my old music project, just before i made a very longterm and important series of consecutive mistakes that i never regretted for even an instant. rerecorded with katherine in my bedroom in my new apartment next to the 505 after that era came to a close. i feel you everywhere 

ASPHALT (SUMMER) (the hanged man, three of cups): written halfway through 2020 on stolen tax exempt slips and hummed into my phone as a voice memo while on the clock at my grocery store job while i still thought i knew how i would be getting out. recorded with katherine in my bedroom in my new apartment next to the 505. thank you to ray (laptopfuneral.bandcamp.com) for providing the synth track, and for being a fantastic musical mentor and friend. you have taught me so much and i am so excited to see where music takes you. change is coming, keep fighting <3 i feel you everywhere 

PROMISE RING (FALL) (two of swords, the tower): written in 2014 while i still lived in wisconsin, shortly after buying and naming katherine. she was begging to get out. she was begging to get out. begging for someone to listen. begging for forgiveness. rerecorded in the dark of what was; my basement. halfway through 2020 after i realized i would never get forgiveness, but that i might still be able to get out. i feel you everywhere 

MOON (FALL) (the moon) written with katherine in the dark of what was; my basement. during october 2019 as i started to discover the way out of the woods that was to be mine. early example of what was my budding complete obsession with seasons and death. i feel you everywhere 

HOLDING MYSELF (FALL) (six of wands, the star): written with katherine in the dark of what was; my basement. in early 2020. i struggled to get a recording of it that satisfied me for nearly two years. i was finally able produce a recording that i love using my 4track in the newly empty living room of the apartment that i lived in for two years. i was only able to record it once i learned to embody its title. i feel you everywhere 

WINTER RITUAL (WINTER) (the magician, queen of wands): written and recorded in the dark of what was; my basement. in december 2019. inspired by anam cara by john o'donohue, and driving to work and sitting silently in my car during snowstorms. i feel you everywhere 

SPIRAL HYMN (WINTER) (the devil, ten of pentacles): written and recorded using my firstact childrens guitar named lily during a brief moment in mid 2020 where i could feel the trajectory of my life and personal growth, all of the work i had done to take care of myself up until that point, pulling me forward and forward and forward. a momentum had built up. things were chaotic and i was in pain but the process was in motion and i had set it. PROD. MELODUS (melodus.bandcamp.com) thank you to melanie for transforming this song and making it what it is. you have changed the way that i look at and make music for the rest of my life. you're a ridiculously talented producer and composer, your dedication and passion for your work is unmatched. i feel so lucky to get to have you in my life and i feel so blessed to get to collaborate with THE female aphex twin <3 i feel you everywhere 

HOW TO DISAPPEAR (SPRING) (the high priestess, the fool): written and recorded with katherine in the dark of what was; my basement. on november 26th 2019. thank you so much to melanie for helping me with the drumtrack, it really brought everything together. this is a love letter to my goddess before i knew her name. a love letter to myself before i knew my name. a love letter to rylin valentine. a love letter to elora driver. a prayer to eris. i feel you everywhere 

ANTIBODIES (SPRING) (strength): written with katherine in late 2020, i struggled to get a recording that i liked for just over a year until i learned how to hold myself. and everything clicked. this song is a love letter to my goddess after i found her name. a love letter to myself as i started to feel a deep understanding of who i am and what i am here for. a love letter to my friends and my art. a prayer to god and universe. a conversation with myself. a stereologue. this song is the distilled serenity of my love, passion, and will. a prayer to myself. a prayer to eris. i feel you everywhere

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